I have been putting this off because I have been at a loss for how to say all I want to. I will never forget the day you were born. Mike, Matt, and I were staying with Aunt Toni and I could not wait to get home to meet you. I loved helping Mom change you and feed you. I loved having another baby brother.
I remember when you were first learning to walk and I was throwing a pillow at your feet making you fall. It was funny to me at the time, I was after all 11 years old. However it was not funny when you hit your head on the table and were bleeding all over. I remember mom rushing you off to the hospital and feeling so guilty and hoping I didn’t cause you permanent injury. When you got home and all you needed was a few stitches and I knew you were OK I was worried about the blood coming out of my New Kids On The Block shirt.
I will never forget your cute little mullet, or pinching your little butt while we were swimming, or the way you loved wrestling, trips to Disney will NEVER EVER be the same. That is the most special thing our family does and how can we go with you not there? I know you would want us to go anyway.
I look around this house and there are memories of you everywhere. I see the gifts you got the girls for birthdays and Christmas and how much they love them. Allie plays with her little puppy house you got her for Christmas almost every day and she loves the drawing set you got her for her birthday. She makes a mess with it but she loves that thing. Maya sleeps with the Pooh you got her every night. I will forever cherish those things. I still have some of the bath stuff you got me for Christmas and every time I use it I will think of you.
You were such a good Uncle. Allie adored you and told me today she misses you. She looked at your picture and said "That’s Uncle Jason at Disney World". She has such a good memory I know even though she is only 3 that she will never forget you. I am just sad that Maya never got the chance to know you as well and that she unfortunately will not remember you. But I will make sure that she knows who you are. I will never forget you coming with us to see the characters at Disney this past year after we split up. You said that you loved seeing the kid’s reactions to meeting them and it made you happy.
I can barely look at the weights in the garage. Even though you only worked out once I know it was something you were planning on doing more often. When I am driving down the road and I see a white Explorer I still look to see if it is you. I can’t help but wish this was all a horrible nightmare and there you will be driving down the road. I know you won’t be. It seems I always ran into you at Walmart. I’m sure I’ll still look for you when I am there.
We have so many good memories and that is what I need to focus on to help me through this. Even though we may have gone a month without speaking I always knew you were out there having fun. I don’t know where you are now, but all I can hope for is that you are still out there having fun. I miss you you and I love you. I just wish I had told you that while you were still here. We didn’t have to say it though we just knew.
I remember when you were first learning to walk and I was throwing a pillow at your feet making you fall. It was funny to me at the time, I was after all 11 years old. However it was not funny when you hit your head on the table and were bleeding all over. I remember mom rushing you off to the hospital and feeling so guilty and hoping I didn’t cause you permanent injury. When you got home and all you needed was a few stitches and I knew you were OK I was worried about the blood coming out of my New Kids On The Block shirt.
I will never forget your cute little mullet, or pinching your little butt while we were swimming, or the way you loved wrestling, trips to Disney will NEVER EVER be the same. That is the most special thing our family does and how can we go with you not there? I know you would want us to go anyway.
I look around this house and there are memories of you everywhere. I see the gifts you got the girls for birthdays and Christmas and how much they love them. Allie plays with her little puppy house you got her for Christmas almost every day and she loves the drawing set you got her for her birthday. She makes a mess with it but she loves that thing. Maya sleeps with the Pooh you got her every night. I will forever cherish those things. I still have some of the bath stuff you got me for Christmas and every time I use it I will think of you.
You were such a good Uncle. Allie adored you and told me today she misses you. She looked at your picture and said "That’s Uncle Jason at Disney World". She has such a good memory I know even though she is only 3 that she will never forget you. I am just sad that Maya never got the chance to know you as well and that she unfortunately will not remember you. But I will make sure that she knows who you are. I will never forget you coming with us to see the characters at Disney this past year after we split up. You said that you loved seeing the kid’s reactions to meeting them and it made you happy.
I can barely look at the weights in the garage. Even though you only worked out once I know it was something you were planning on doing more often. When I am driving down the road and I see a white Explorer I still look to see if it is you. I can’t help but wish this was all a horrible nightmare and there you will be driving down the road. I know you won’t be. It seems I always ran into you at Walmart. I’m sure I’ll still look for you when I am there.
We have so many good memories and that is what I need to focus on to help me through this. Even though we may have gone a month without speaking I always knew you were out there having fun. I don’t know where you are now, but all I can hope for is that you are still out there having fun. I miss you you and I love you. I just wish I had told you that while you were still here. We didn’t have to say it though we just knew.
